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I’m still me.

I’m still my father’s little girl, my mother’s best friend and my brother’s sister. I’m still your cousin, your niece and your granddaughter. I’m still the friend that will make you laugh and the friend that will always be there. I’m still the girl you can talk to about anything, the girl who will cry with you and tell you it’s going to be alright. I’m still the friend you can call up out of the blue and pick up right where we left off. I’m still the girl who will stick up for you, remind you of your strengths and tell you how much you matter. I’m still the friend that will always try and make everything okay, the friend that will gladly go out of their way for you and who will always try to make you smile. I’m still the friend who will always care about you, the friend you did everything with and the friend you considered a sister.

 

I’m still her.

 

I’m still me.

 

I’m the girl that hasn’t given up, the girl that battles Lyme Disease every single day and the girl who won’t go down without a fight. I’m the friend that is mostly confined to her bed, the friend who can’t help how she feels and the friend that doesn’t mean to keep losing touch. I’m the girl who just wants someone to love her through the good days and the bad days, the girl who is tired of being defined by others because of her illness and the girl who just wants to feel better again.

 

I may be her, but I’m still me.

 

 

Healing thoughts and prayers to all,

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 30

Today concludes the ‘Seeing The Good’ series. A whole month dedicated to posting positive thoughts, images, quotes, etc. To be honest, I didn’t think I would stick to it. There were days where just thinking about writing a post exhausted me. But I did it. And I’m glad I did.

Frustration, joy, anger, happiness. Long story short, it’s been a month of back-and-forth-and-back-and-forth. “That’s what life is: repetitive routines. It’s a matter of finding the balance between deviating from those patterns and knowing when to repeat them.”Joseph Gordon-Levitt Whether yet another doctor’s appointment left me without answers and in tears, or just being happy to have the energy to do my laundry, it has all been an experience. I’m very grateful that a recent ER visit for my mother ended up being minor when it could have been much worse. I’m also thankful for my father celebrating another birthday. He was diagnosed with Myocarditis when I was very young and he continues to prove doctors wrong each day. We have this moment and only this moment for sure. Cherish it, always.

I will no doubt learn from this past month more so than others, frankly because while the happening events were evolving, I was concentrating on the positive effects that they would have on me. And that, is a very difficult thing to do.“Life isn’t about what happens to you, it’s about how you handle what happens.” Maybe someone who is not suffering from a chronic illness will find that seeing the good is not that difficult at all. Or, maybe they’ll find that it is. I have always been the optimistic type, but pessimistic thoughts do seep in time to time, unfortunately getting the best of me. We all have our down moments. The best way to stay focus on the positive is to appreciate the little things in life. You’ll be surprised how such small acts of kindness take up the most room in your heart.

It’s been a difficult past few weeks, but sticking to this challenge made it all the more bearable, all the more worth it. “Life is about change, sometimes it’s painful, sometimes it’s beautiful, but most of the time it’s both.” From new followers to such supportive, kind-hearted comments, I sincerely can not thank you all enough for accompanying me by my side this past month. And I’ll continue to stay right by your side, and most importantly, being your voice.

Please feel free to leave your thoughts on the ‘Seeing The Good’ series and if that’s something you’d like to look forward to again. You’re welcome to suggest topics, ask questions, and I’m certainly up for other blog/sites/etc. recommendations, as well. I’m hoping to continue sticking to my goal of posting more often. You will definitely be hearing from me again soon.

Until then, Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of overcoming it.”Helen Keller

Healing thoughts and prayers to all,

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 29

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 22

A great song by a great band. I hope you’ll enjoy it.

 

 

 

“One good thing about music, when it hits- you feel no pain…” – Bob Marley

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

 

 

Seeing The Good: Day 14

Today’s post is dedicated to you. Yes, you

I want to thank all my followers and anyone else who takes time out of their day to read my posts. I truly mean it when I say words cannot describe how much your feedback means to me and your never-ending support. All of you. 

Starting this blog has definitely made such a positive difference in my life. I guess we all think no one is going to ever read what we have to say or what we think. Then, everything changes when you get your first comment, your first like, your first reblog, your first follower, and seeing the number of views right after you make a post. But even if I didn’t get comments, likes or any views–I’d still post, I would still try to be someone’s voice.

And that’s what I’ll continue to do. Thank you. Thank you for making someone who has felt so very helpless and lost, like she’s found home again. It’s because of you that she feels worth it. And not alone.

I hope I can do the same for you.

Happy Valentines Day, my friends. I hope love finds you not just today, but every day. 

 

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

**Apologies for posting late.

Seeing The Good: Day 6

Always remember to smile. You never know whose day you’ll end up brightening. You never know just how much a smile can make a difference when it’s you that is going through such a drag of a day–and you make eye contact with someone who is smiling at you. The feeling is indescribable.

A big thank you to the barista at Starbucks today. And for calling me “Smiley”.

Smile. Share it with someone who’d least expect it, who has no choice, but to smile back.

My Smile

Healing thoughts and prayers (and smiles) to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 4

You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be loved. You deserve the world–and nothing less.

Never, never forget that.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 3

Someone who I dearly admire and has such a great influence in my life recently said to me that if they were going through a similar situation as mine at my age, they would have given up.

I’d be lying if I said the thought of giving up never crossed my mine. Not in the I-would-take-my-life sense, but just accepting that this is it, nothing is ever going to improve. If I did believe that, I wouldn’t be writing this post, I wouldn’t have started this blog, I wouldn’t be trying to be your voice. I do know things will get better, even when it doesn’t feel like they will, at times. But you have to hang on to something in this life. Anything. A strangers smile. Catching a sunset. Something that makes you feel worth it, something that gives you the courage to conquer the next day and the next day after that.

And you don’t need someones promise, someones word to make you feel worth it in this world. YOU need to know that you’re worth it–because you are. No matter how helpless you feel, no matter how empty, broken, and lost you feel, you’re worth it. You’re worth the fight that you’re fighting every single day.

You’re stronger than you know.

And I guess I am, too.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 1

As I mentioned in my last post, for the next month, each day I will be posting something positive, no matter how bad of a day it is. No excuses. Period.

Eating dinner as a family has always been important to me. I remember writing a paper on it back in middle school, even. Since I’ve been sick, sometimes I’ll eat before the rest of the family or I don’t eat at all. When I do sit down with them, I don’t usually eat the same meal. Tonight they made meatloaf, which has milk and breadcrumbs in it and my mom put aside some hamburger meat so I could make my own mini loaf–gluten and dairy free. Here are the results!

Homemade GF Breadcrumbs
This was my first time making GF breadcrumbs. I looked up a couple of recipes online to get an idea of seasonings and how long to bake it for, but it really was quite simple to do. I defrosted a few slices of gluten-free bread and then broke apart hunks to put in the food processor. Then I placed the crumbs in a bowl to mix with some seasoning. I don’t measure ingredients most of the time (I guess that’s an Italian thing…), but the amount of seasoning really should be up to you. I just sprinkled some oregano and basil in the crumbs and tossed it all together with some olive oil. Then, spread the crumbs out on a baking sheet and bake until golden brown, which was around 10-15 minutes at 350 degrees. After they cooled for a bit, you then mix it with the hamburger meat and soy milk, until it becomes a moldable consistency, not dry or that breaks apart. Then, place in a casserole dish.
 
 
 
And, there you have it. Cooking times vary depending on how thick/how much meat you’re using, but after cooking the meat for some time, you then add tomato sauce over the top, sprinkle with parsley, and let it cook a little longer. Of course you can subsitute a different meat or opt for a meatless version, as well as using a different wet ingredient.
 
So, tonight I sat down with my family and enjoyed the same meal–with just a couple of tweaks. And it was worth it. It always is.
 
Healing thoughts and prayers to all-
 
Kate