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Healing thoughts and prayers to all,

 

Kate

I’m still me.

I’m still my father’s little girl, my mother’s best friend and my brother’s sister. I’m still your cousin, your niece and your granddaughter. I’m still the friend that will make you laugh and the friend that will always be there. I’m still the girl you can talk to about anything, the girl who will cry with you and tell you it’s going to be alright. I’m still the friend you can call up out of the blue and pick up right where we left off. I’m still the girl who will stick up for you, remind you of your strengths and tell you how much you matter. I’m still the friend that will always try and make everything okay, the friend that will gladly go out of their way for you and who will always try to make you smile. I’m still the friend who will always care about you, the friend you did everything with and the friend you considered a sister.

 

I’m still her.

 

I’m still me.

 

I’m the girl that hasn’t given up, the girl that battles Lyme Disease every single day and the girl who won’t go down without a fight. I’m the friend that is mostly confined to her bed, the friend who can’t help how she feels and the friend that doesn’t mean to keep losing touch. I’m the girl who just wants someone to love her through the good days and the bad days, the girl who is tired of being defined by others because of her illness and the girl who just wants to feel better again.

 

I may be her, but I’m still me.

 

 

Healing thoughts and prayers to all,

Kate

“I didn’t come this far to only come this far.”

My name is Kate. I’m 26, I haven’t gone to college, the only relationship I have is with my bed (or sometimes the couch) and I’m trying to get back on my feet again after fighting Lyme Disease for most of my life.

Some of that may sound familiar since I originally wrote it in an earlier post back when I first started this blog. I wish my absence meant I’ve only been improving but, that’s unfortunately not the case. In the posts-to-come, I’ll be sure to update you on my continuous fight with Lyme and all the difficulties you must face dealing with a chronic illness such as the loss of friendships, relationships, independence and how many, many, many of us are not giving ourselves the credit we truly do deserve. We’re still fighting, we’re still here. That means something, right?

Most don’t have a clue what someone with a chronic illness goes through on a daily basis. We can’t help it if we can’t make it out of bed most days, are unable to eat, think clearly, hold a conversation, move without wincing in pain, always needing the bathroom, not feeling up to getting out of the house, glued to our heating pad, need the room dark because of a terrible migraine, so nauseous you can’t even speak, curled up in a ball because of intense stomach pain, hit the point of exhaustion where you just can’t keep your eyes open–and much more.

For those of you not familiar with my blog, it’s about how Lyme Disease both takes time from you as well as takes time to recover from. You can also expect posts about some of my favorite recipes as well as products I enjoy. I do take the time to share experiences on how numerous doctor appointments left me in tears, to friends and relatives not being able to understand. I know there is someone, somewhere who has yet to be diagnosed or recently was and honestly can’t find themselves more lost just as I once was. I still find myself lost a great deal of the time, but as the title of this post states, “I didn’t come this far to only come this far.” As I continue giving this fight my all, you can count on me being your voice as well as bringing much needed awareness to this truly controversial disease that continues to wreak havoc on so many lives each and every day.

 

You’re not alone.

 

“Strength grows in moments when you think you can’t go on but you keep going anyway.”

 

Healing thoughts and prayers to all,

 

Kate

 

Seeing The Good: Day 27

I’d like to dedicate today’s post to a very inspiring, strong-willed soul who is also celebrating their birthday today.

If you asked me to describe Hannah in one word, I would tell you it’s just not possible. How do you describe one who picks up their life and moves to a different state to get the treatment she so desperately needed and deserved? I could say that she’s brave, determined, courageous, all of which is true–but that’s the thing, I wouldn’t know when to stop.
 
Hannah has been battling Lyme Disease and multiple co-infections. She just recently returned back home after eight and a half months of grueling, yet promising, treatment. It certainly has not been easy. She may have a bit of a way to go still, but she didn’t and hasn’t given up. That alone says more than any word can describe.

This kind-hearted gal makes you feel as if you’ve known her forever. She’s always smiling, making jokes, and always has everyone at ease. She has such a big heart and deserves nothing but the best.

Thank you Hannah, for everything, for all that you do. You’re truly an inspiration to all.

Happy Birthday, love. Wishing you the best not just today, but always.

xo Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 16

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 13

I dislike the feeling of constant tension in the air. It’s always lingering, just waiting to burst without warning at any second. Whether it’s a breakdown or an argument, there’s tension surrounding you, whether you’re apart of that particular situation or not. If you’re apart of that heat of the moment discussion, you feel battered, helpless. If you find yourself on the sidelines, you feel the same

There’s really no right way to approach these situations. You either let them run their course or try to say your peace. In the end, there’s really no way of knowing how anything will pan out. It’s not always in our hands.

When you’re chronically ill, there’s not a day that you’re not constantly thinking about all the “what if’s”, the debt that you’re in, and hoping one day you’ll be given an answer to the cause of your pain, why you’re so sick. You watch your family sorting out bills, getting into discussions about this doctor and that doctor. And then there are days where you’re not apart of a now different growing tension, a different elephant in the room. Something you have no part in. Something you have no say in. But it’s there, all around you and there’s nothing you can do. But you wish you could make things different, wish you could make things better for those involved.

Some things are out of our control. All we can do is just try to accept what is and what isn’t. Whatever the situation, you do have the power to let go, to forgive. And the tension that is swirling around you caused by others, all you can do is wait for the storm to pass, as helpless as you feel.

It’s time to let go of all the tension that is weighing you down, that feels as if it’s all just piled up on your chest–and let your heart beat freely, free of any worries.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 12

“Don’t be discouraged. It’s often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock.” ~Unknown

I found this quote very uplifting. On days where you feel like you’ve just had it with everything, remember that there is something better on the other side. We will get past this illness, we will get past these struggles. We will. There’s always a reason to keep hanging in there. Always. Even when it feels like we’re hanging on by a thread, there’s always a reason.

Here’s to conquering yet another day and getting closer to unlocking that stubborn ol’ lock!

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 11

I don’t think most of us give ourselves the credit we deserve. We’re faced with such a challenge, each and every day, yet, we still manage to crack a smile, help with things around the house when we can, attend social gatherings even when we feel the absolute worst–but still feel like a burden, still feel incredibly helpless. 

I can’t count how many times my folks have told me to stop apologizing over everything. When I break, I say I’m sorry. When I’m buckled over in pain and can’t move, I say I’m sorry. Even though we have no control how we are going to feel the very next minute, we just can’t help but feel like a bother, no matter what.

We feel the way we do because we care. We care about the ones around us and try to be strong for them. And when we feel we have let them down, we can’t help but apologize. That is why we stray from dear ones because we will do whatever we can to prevent them from seeing us in pain.

On days when the pain is bearable, you can show your appreciation in little ways, such as washing a few dishes or loading the dishwasher. You can organize the messy stack of newspapers and magazines which have collected on the floor. Anything you can think of, give it a try. Just don’t push yourself. I can’t begin to tell you the times I pushed myself out of frustration because I sincerely hate the fact that simple every day chores are becoming such a difficult task for me. I’m sure I’m not alone in this and that, you too, have done the same.

You really shouldn’t worry about what you can and can’t do. I know it’s easier said than done. Your loved ones know you’re trying, I can tell you that. They may not show it or act like it. That’s their way of coping.

So, give yourself the credit you so very much deserve. You’ve been through a heck of a lot. And you do more than you truly realize.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 10

I couldn’t think of anything more appropriate to share since it’s just been the kind of day where you’re constantly fighting with yourself to think positive, to put on a smile–everything. The pain is indescribable, you can’t move and you feel so incredibly helpless.

I know I’ll get through this. I know the pain will pass. Relief will come, it will. And you need to remind yourself the very same. It will pass, it will pass. We often forget to remind ourselves that because it doesn’t feel like the pain will ever subside. We often wake with the same pain we have fallen asleep with the night before or are still battling the same pain or worse with no sleep at all. Calling it a battle doesn’t even describe the half of it. And we still rise each and every day.

You’re a fighter, a true warrior.

Here’s to a better tomorrow. “This too, shall pass.”

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing the Good: Day 9

Some days, it’s hard to see the good. No matter how hard you try to see through the pain, you can’t see over to the other side.

Breathe..

Wipe away the tears, clear your head and take a minute to remind yourself how far you’ve come–because darling, you are one day closer to seeing over to the other side and one day closer to actually living it. It hurts and you feel tomorrow will bring only the same pain. Maybe it will, maybe it won’t.

But we won’t find out if we let this all slip away. Don’t let it slip away. You ARE strong and WILL rise with the morning sun the next day. You never know what the new day can bring.

Be thankful for your existence. Be thankful for this life. I know you wish it was different. Your day will come.

Sending love and strength your way, always.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate