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Seeing The Good: Day 17 & 18

Some days, there’s no escaping the pain. The dreaded ache and hurt, pulsating throughout your body, head to toe. On days like this, the only emotion you’re able to express is fear. You’re scared, you feel the pain will never end, and you’re just completely overcome by tears.

Relief will come, relief will come.

It’s hard to explain our pain to others. Not only is it difficult to describe, but that’s just it; it’s indescribable. Remember to be eternally grateful for those around you that continue to remain by your side, even if there’s no communication involved, just tears. “Tears are words the heart can’t express.”

When you find yourself thinking of dear ones no longer apart of your life or the ones that have joined the heavens above, take a moment to relish in those precious memories, then pick your chin up, and continue on. For there is a reason the ones no longer apart of your life are gone and have gone their separate ways. Trying to figure out that reason is always the most painful and therefore, you should just let it go, let it be. And the dear ones that have already walked the staircase to the glorious heavens above, they are always, always with you. Never forget that.

On that note, I’d like to take the time to remember the beloved Whitney Houston. Her death is yet another painful reminder that life is so very short and time is precious. My heart goes out to her family and loved ones. Sending them all much strength and love. Whitney, you will never be forgotten.

Tomorrow is never promised. Always say I love you.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

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Seeing The Good: Day 15

“Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, coworker, long-lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.”

Another great quote that I thought was worth sharing. We often don’t take the time to appreciate the presence of others around us. Whether its someone you actually know or not, you should always make the effort to show them just how much you do.

To the two very kind gentlemen that took the time to appreciate my presence yesterday, I thank you. When one feels their absolute worst (and looks it, too), it’s an incredible feeling to have your presence noticed, be wished Happy Valentines Day, and have the kind of conversation with one you feel as if you’ve known your whole life.

One of those gentlemen and I discussed for a lengthy amount of time how many don’t take the time to appreciate things or anything for that fact, really. What started the conversation in the first place? We were both taking photos of the same thing; swans. I went on to say how unique and beautiful they are and how I’ll just stand there, clicking away, not having a care about how many pictures I have taken, just happy that I was able to photograph that particular moment. He related, as well. He also went on saying how he love’s taking photos of friends and loved ones unexpectedly and said that is what capturing the moment is all about. I happily related, as well. I do hope our paths meet again. If not, then be it.

I’ll conclude with, you never know who will walk into your life for a brief chat–or end up being apart of it.

See with your heart and you’ll see things you’ve never taken the time to appreciate before.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 13

I dislike the feeling of constant tension in the air. It’s always lingering, just waiting to burst without warning at any second. Whether it’s a breakdown or an argument, there’s tension surrounding you, whether you’re apart of that particular situation or not. If you’re apart of that heat of the moment discussion, you feel battered, helpless. If you find yourself on the sidelines, you feel the same

There’s really no right way to approach these situations. You either let them run their course or try to say your peace. In the end, there’s really no way of knowing how anything will pan out. It’s not always in our hands.

When you’re chronically ill, there’s not a day that you’re not constantly thinking about all the “what if’s”, the debt that you’re in, and hoping one day you’ll be given an answer to the cause of your pain, why you’re so sick. You watch your family sorting out bills, getting into discussions about this doctor and that doctor. And then there are days where you’re not apart of a now different growing tension, a different elephant in the room. Something you have no part in. Something you have no say in. But it’s there, all around you and there’s nothing you can do. But you wish you could make things different, wish you could make things better for those involved.

Some things are out of our control. All we can do is just try to accept what is and what isn’t. Whatever the situation, you do have the power to let go, to forgive. And the tension that is swirling around you caused by others, all you can do is wait for the storm to pass, as helpless as you feel.

It’s time to let go of all the tension that is weighing you down, that feels as if it’s all just piled up on your chest–and let your heart beat freely, free of any worries.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 11

I don’t think most of us give ourselves the credit we deserve. We’re faced with such a challenge, each and every day, yet, we still manage to crack a smile, help with things around the house when we can, attend social gatherings even when we feel the absolute worst–but still feel like a burden, still feel incredibly helpless. 

I can’t count how many times my folks have told me to stop apologizing over everything. When I break, I say I’m sorry. When I’m buckled over in pain and can’t move, I say I’m sorry. Even though we have no control how we are going to feel the very next minute, we just can’t help but feel like a bother, no matter what.

We feel the way we do because we care. We care about the ones around us and try to be strong for them. And when we feel we have let them down, we can’t help but apologize. That is why we stray from dear ones because we will do whatever we can to prevent them from seeing us in pain.

On days when the pain is bearable, you can show your appreciation in little ways, such as washing a few dishes or loading the dishwasher. You can organize the messy stack of newspapers and magazines which have collected on the floor. Anything you can think of, give it a try. Just don’t push yourself. I can’t begin to tell you the times I pushed myself out of frustration because I sincerely hate the fact that simple every day chores are becoming such a difficult task for me. I’m sure I’m not alone in this and that, you too, have done the same.

You really shouldn’t worry about what you can and can’t do. I know it’s easier said than done. Your loved ones know you’re trying, I can tell you that. They may not show it or act like it. That’s their way of coping.

So, give yourself the credit you so very much deserve. You’ve been through a heck of a lot. And you do more than you truly realize.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 5

Sometimes our thoughts get the best of us. They become these heavy, heavy weights, always weighing us down like an anchor that makes us feel as if we’ll never see the shore again.

Remarks from loved ones in the past come out of hiding, only adding to the weight along with painful memories. What could have been, should have been. Remembering when you were well, when you didn’t spend all your time borrowing in your room, away from the word. All these thoughts leave us feeling helpless and buried alive.

When there is no hand to reach for, look to your own. When there is no one there to tell you it will be alright, whisper it to yourself. When you find yourself in tears, “Cry as hard as you want to. But just make sure that when you stop crying, you never cry for the same reason again.”

We carry a lot. And we need to remember to give ourselves credit, for all that we do, all that we face and haunts us on a daily basis.

One day at a time, one day at a time.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 4

You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be loved. You deserve the world–and nothing less.

Never, never forget that.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 3

Someone who I dearly admire and has such a great influence in my life recently said to me that if they were going through a similar situation as mine at my age, they would have given up.

I’d be lying if I said the thought of giving up never crossed my mine. Not in the I-would-take-my-life sense, but just accepting that this is it, nothing is ever going to improve. If I did believe that, I wouldn’t be writing this post, I wouldn’t have started this blog, I wouldn’t be trying to be your voice. I do know things will get better, even when it doesn’t feel like they will, at times. But you have to hang on to something in this life. Anything. A strangers smile. Catching a sunset. Something that makes you feel worth it, something that gives you the courage to conquer the next day and the next day after that.

And you don’t need someones promise, someones word to make you feel worth it in this world. YOU need to know that you’re worth it–because you are. No matter how helpless you feel, no matter how empty, broken, and lost you feel, you’re worth it. You’re worth the fight that you’re fighting every single day.

You’re stronger than you know.

And I guess I am, too.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate