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I’m still me.

I’m still my father’s little girl, my mother’s best friend and my brother’s sister. I’m still your cousin, your niece and your granddaughter. I’m still the friend that will make you laugh and the friend that will always be there. I’m still the girl you can talk to about anything, the girl who will cry with you and tell you it’s going to be alright. I’m still the friend you can call up out of the blue and pick up right where we left off. I’m still the girl who will stick up for you, remind you of your strengths and tell you how much you matter. I’m still the friend that will always try and make everything okay, the friend that will gladly go out of their way for you and who will always try to make you smile. I’m still the friend who will always care about you, the friend you did everything with and the friend you considered a sister.

 

I’m still her.

 

I’m still me.

 

I’m the girl that hasn’t given up, the girl that battles Lyme Disease every single day and the girl who won’t go down without a fight. I’m the friend that is mostly confined to her bed, the friend who can’t help how she feels and the friend that doesn’t mean to keep losing touch. I’m the girl who just wants someone to love her through the good days and the bad days, the girl who is tired of being defined by others because of her illness and the girl who just wants to feel better again.

 

I may be her, but I’m still me.

 

 

Healing thoughts and prayers to all,

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 25

It’s the little things that mean the most…

 Like baking with the ones you care so much about.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

**Will post today’s Seeing The Good later. Apologies..

Seeing The Good: Day 22

A great song by a great band. I hope you’ll enjoy it.

 

 

 

“One good thing about music, when it hits- you feel no pain…” – Bob Marley

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

 

 

Seeing The Good: Day 19

It’s days like today that make me feel like I can conquer just about anything. Pain might have been a bit of a problem, but I got myself out of bed, had some coffee, and made it to Sunday Mass for the first time in months. The whole family didn’t go, just me and my mother, which was nice. We haven’t had much us time in a while. I also paid a visit to my grandmother who I haven’t seen since the week after Christmas. We had quite a few laughs as we always do, along with my aunt and uncle who were also there. Today was good.

It’s been a rough week, to say the least, so I’m very thankful for today. Very. If you follow my posts regularly, you’ll notice I didn’t post on the 17th. I know I said I would post something positive each day for a month, no matter what, but I’ve been overcome with such pain, I was unable to.  All this suffering day in and day out, not seeming like we’ll ever catch a break, really weighs us down. We do get these “breaks” thrown at us every now and then. And we mustn’t put them off. If we feel up to it, that we can push ourselves with our pain at a bearable level, just go. Go after whatever your heart is desiring to do at that moment and don’t think twice about it, just do it. You’ll be glad you did.

I truly didn’t think today would have been such a great turnout considering the lack of sleep I struggled with the night before. It was a mixture of both pain and emotions that just took over and got the best of me. After today, I’m most definitely in a better light of things now, but know I will succumb to those thoughts and emotions again, only hopefully, it will hurt less.

I’ll leave you with part of a scripture that was read today during Mass that I think many of us need to remind ourselves of often; “Thus says the Lord: Remember not the events of the past, the things of long ago consider not.”

I sincerely hope you can rid yourself of any negative past events. Whether it means forgiving another, letting go, or making a different positive change in your life, no matter how hard it is to do, just know you are not alone. Look here or to others that have or are going through a similar situation. You’ll be surprised at the amount of understanding–and just being able to relate to someone.

Here’s to an even better tomorrow. Sending love and strength, always.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 6

Always remember to smile. You never know whose day you’ll end up brightening. You never know just how much a smile can make a difference when it’s you that is going through such a drag of a day–and you make eye contact with someone who is smiling at you. The feeling is indescribable.

A big thank you to the barista at Starbucks today. And for calling me “Smiley”.

Smile. Share it with someone who’d least expect it, who has no choice, but to smile back.

My Smile

Healing thoughts and prayers (and smiles) to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 3

Someone who I dearly admire and has such a great influence in my life recently said to me that if they were going through a similar situation as mine at my age, they would have given up.

I’d be lying if I said the thought of giving up never crossed my mine. Not in the I-would-take-my-life sense, but just accepting that this is it, nothing is ever going to improve. If I did believe that, I wouldn’t be writing this post, I wouldn’t have started this blog, I wouldn’t be trying to be your voice. I do know things will get better, even when it doesn’t feel like they will, at times. But you have to hang on to something in this life. Anything. A strangers smile. Catching a sunset. Something that makes you feel worth it, something that gives you the courage to conquer the next day and the next day after that.

And you don’t need someones promise, someones word to make you feel worth it in this world. YOU need to know that you’re worth it–because you are. No matter how helpless you feel, no matter how empty, broken, and lost you feel, you’re worth it. You’re worth the fight that you’re fighting every single day.

You’re stronger than you know.

And I guess I am, too.

Healing thoughts and prayers to all-

Kate

Seeing The Good: Day 1

As I mentioned in my last post, for the next month, each day I will be posting something positive, no matter how bad of a day it is. No excuses. Period.

Eating dinner as a family has always been important to me. I remember writing a paper on it back in middle school, even. Since I’ve been sick, sometimes I’ll eat before the rest of the family or I don’t eat at all. When I do sit down with them, I don’t usually eat the same meal. Tonight they made meatloaf, which has milk and breadcrumbs in it and my mom put aside some hamburger meat so I could make my own mini loaf–gluten and dairy free. Here are the results!

Homemade GF Breadcrumbs
This was my first time making GF breadcrumbs. I looked up a couple of recipes online to get an idea of seasonings and how long to bake it for, but it really was quite simple to do. I defrosted a few slices of gluten-free bread and then broke apart hunks to put in the food processor. Then I placed the crumbs in a bowl to mix with some seasoning. I don’t measure ingredients most of the time (I guess that’s an Italian thing…), but the amount of seasoning really should be up to you. I just sprinkled some oregano and basil in the crumbs and tossed it all together with some olive oil. Then, spread the crumbs out on a baking sheet and bake until golden brown, which was around 10-15 minutes at 350 degrees. After they cooled for a bit, you then mix it with the hamburger meat and soy milk, until it becomes a moldable consistency, not dry or that breaks apart. Then, place in a casserole dish.
 
 
 
And, there you have it. Cooking times vary depending on how thick/how much meat you’re using, but after cooking the meat for some time, you then add tomato sauce over the top, sprinkle with parsley, and let it cook a little longer. Of course you can subsitute a different meat or opt for a meatless version, as well as using a different wet ingredient.
 
So, tonight I sat down with my family and enjoyed the same meal–with just a couple of tweaks. And it was worth it. It always is.
 
Healing thoughts and prayers to all-
 
Kate